A New Path

Well

The truth is I didn’t want to write this blog, so much so that I have done everything possible just to ignore it. I don’t like being vulnerable, believe it or not. Every time I post a vulnerable blog, it feels like I am standing naked on stage, trying to explain why all the things I am experiencing are valid. It is often more stressful than fun, but I guess that I hope someone will read it and feel less alone. That they will feel confident that, no matter how big or small, their problems and emotions are valid.

I have been very open and vocal about my car accident. It changed my life in so many unforeseen ways, some good, but many feel debilitating at times. The truth is, even though I had slowed down some areas of my life, I was still trying to perform at 100% in other areas. It took a pretty terrifying panic attack to come to terms with the fact that this brain injury has changed my capacity to work. I couldn’t keep up. I felt like I was failing and like I was drowning. The truth is, I cannot be the person I was before the accident. I have upwards of 5 appointments a week. My brain doesn’t process or function the same way and it made me want to commit myself. I didn’t want to admit or tell anyone how bad it was, how hard I was trying, even though people around me could tell.

I talked to my business partner and we agreed it was time to hire someone to take over my responsibilities. I was embarrassed. Mortified even. As of March 15th I am no longer employed, I will be doing contract social media work. I am however so excited because this gives me an opportunity to go back to what I love. I will be launching my consulting business, I will be accepting pop up gigs, I will be reopening my photography agency.

It felt at first like a setback, however the longer I sit with it, it feels like a beginning. I will be posting a lot more collaborations, if you are interested please send your products to the following address.

Cecilia Mendes

1795 Clarkson Road

Suite 350

St. Louis, MO 63107

Til the next one

Cecilia